aku kangen abah..

hari ini aku berulang kali menangis, diberbagai tempat, dan untungnya ga ada yang melihat tingkah ini.. hehe
entah kenapa ya? rasanya aku kangen banget abah. kangen beliau tu rasanya menyakitkan kawan. kenapa? karena kangen ini ga akan bisa diobatin. lha wong Abah udah almarhum, lewat 10,5 tahun beliau meninggalkan kami didunia..dan itu waktu yg nggak sedikit kawan. beliau meninggalkan kami disaat aku belum bener-bener ngerti rasanya kehilangan.
tapi mungkin inilah rencana Allah.. tawakkal aja deh, hehe.
buat temen-temen yang baca blog ini, buat temen-temen yg juga ngerasain sama kaya aku, aku cuma bisa bilang, tetep senyum ya.. karena beliau yang kita rindukan disana lagi tersenyum karena tau kita yang disini masih mengingat dan menyimpannya dihati.. =)

ini lirik lagu yang bikin aku keinget Abah.

Taylor Swift - The Best Day.

i’m five years old
it’s getting cold
i’ve got my big coat on

i hear your laugh
n look up smiling at you
i run and run

past the pumpkin patch
n the tractor rides
look now the sky is gold
i hug your legs and fall asleep
on the way home

i don’t know why all the trees change in the fall
i know you’re not scared of anything at all
don’t know if snow white’s house is near or far away
but i know i had the best day
with you today

i’m thirteen now
n don’t know how my friends
could be so mean
i come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
n we drive and drive
until we’ve found a town
far enough away

n we talk and window-shop
until i’ve forgotten all their names
i don’t know who i’m gonna talk to
now at school
i know i’m laughing on the car ride home with you
don’t know how long it’s gonna take to feel okay
but i know i had the best day
with you today

i have an excellent father
his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother
inside and out
he’s better than i am

i grew up in a pretty house
n i had space to run
n i had the best days with you

there is a video
i found from back when i was three
you set up a paint set in the kitchen
n you’re talking to me

it’s the age of princesses and pirate ships
n the seven dwarfs
daddy’s smart
n you’re the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

now i know why all the trees change in the fall
i know you were on my side
even when i was wrong
n i love you for giving me your eyes
staying back and watching me shine

n i didn’t know if you knew
so i’m taking this chance to say
that i had the best day
with you today
=)

miss u Abah..